Friday, May 22, 2009

ying shui si yuan (remembering your roots)



I am detached
the clothes
the cups
plates
spoons
forks
lie in

piles

i do not
laugh
or
smile
i
answer
too slowly
i have changed

i am not
the
loving
understanding
daughter
you miss so
much

i have forgotten
where
i
came
from
who
raised
and
fed
me

many things distract
me
in a way you can't
i am
not
yours
anymore

why

you sat here
and talked
and
hoped
but my heart has turned cold

why

God
dont let me
continue
like
this

i need
to be
how i
was
in the
past

I need to
get my
priorities
on the
straight
and narrow

only
You can
help

me

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Sire Sire Pants on Fire




don't say another word
don't tempt me to sin
don't cause me to seethe
and let useless tears spill
from these wretched eyes of mine

don't say another word
i can hear you loud and clear
you shout your wisdom
but all i hear is
a monstrous voice

that is speaking in
a muffled drone

you have just placed
the phone down
with an angry click
that still
rings in my head

Will there be that
click again?

i am an imbecile
a letdown
and an ignorant
ungrateful fool

a naive
stupid
useless
daughter

you have asked me to come
i have placed my hand to your craggy face
you have called and beckoned

i have screamed
and ignored

i look out at my window
and i see the night sky
littered with stars
and the moon

which will be dragged down
tonight
which will be held under water
by a scorching arch enemy

i look you at my window
and i see the dawn breaking
a red sea of clouds
littered with agony

and a phoenix
which is shot in the wings
by an arrow

it falls to the craggy recesses of earth
and remains there

till it is no more

till it is part of

nothingness

till the clouds condense
and wash its remains away

till the cicada tree is felled
and sees
its last days

till the night turns early
with dread
and deceit

till my fingers tire
and i give in
to fitful sleep

Do not say any more

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Out of sight, out of mind




please think about this.

You drink a cup of star bucks coffee.
A child living at another end of the world gulps down rain water.

You buy a new pair of top grade crocs.
Someone else you absolutely have no concern for drags his bare, bony feet along parched sand.

You buy new clothes, every year, at new year.
a skinny man wears half of his shirt. It used to be without holes. But now you wouldn't tell it was a shirt if he wasn't clothed in it.

You are late for class, and you hop in a cab.
They don't even know what a cab is, for goodness sake.

You look at your plate of food. So full, you tell yourself. And you walk away from the table.
Someone out there desperately wishes that someone over here would eat less and give more.

We buy new gadgets and complain about older ones.
They can't even call for an ambulance even if they're about to d-i-e.

And the problem is, although we could and sometimes combine our efforts and save lives, the plain fact is-

WE ABSOLUTELY DON'T CARE.

We buy tissue paper from poor handicapped aunties and poor old, elderly folks. But when the problem is out of sight, something snaps, and it is thrown out of our minds. Even if it's something really, really BIG.

Out of sight, out of mind?

I wouldn't like to think so.

But i do.

Thats why families drift away when they stay away from each other for too long a time.
Four years is too much for a daughter's mind, i guess?

BUT!
ending on a happy note!

Do watch this show called
We're back! - A dinosaur's story

If you have time
Steven Spielberg had a hand in it, so expect great things.
Do tell me how you thought the show was. (its available on youtube :D)

ciao ppl! <3
in this case

Def. People
Noun; Individuals who read this and who are probably dying from boredom but dying cause school is starting soon.
Adj; Awesome and toowonderful :D

I promise im gna blog so much more often!
thanks to a new friend named Marcus!