Monday, December 21, 2009

abundant life

John 10:10:
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.



Lord, may i live my life to the full for you. that all things will fade in comparison to your love for me, and your call for me to draw near to you and do your will. i praise you because you, god, are jehovah jireh, my provider.


Amen

Sunday, December 20, 2009

I drift, I burn, I fly
When you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, I'm yearning
I'm like the putty in your hands

I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a roller coaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who i am
Just take my hand and

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you

I had a dream that i
was falling from the sky
At 90 miles an hour
I was bound to crash and die
But out of nowhere you came and rescued me
There must be some grace in the touch of your face
I'm so happy that I've found you
I'm no longer afraid
http://www.free-lyrics.org/6003-Corrinne-May.html

Oh ' cause you
Save me from this place
Heaven knows i'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting

Before i met you
Life was slow-mo
So slow-mo
I thought i had it figured out
But you came and turned my whole world upside down

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows you've come to

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you

i am such a spoilsport!

i felt so stripped
i didn't know what to do
i felt angry
was it cause of you?
i have no idea

SHEESH

you're such a stinky kid, tay yan tze!!!!!!!
bath time.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

The great I AM


Lord
Praise you and thank you for all that you’ve done for me
Lord truly you are at work in my life, and I want to surrender it to you again
Daily
No matter the circumstance, will I let you take over
May you continue to mould and shape me
To be more like you each day
That I will never give up seeking this precious jewel
O lord, praise you for you are all I need
And you bless me beyond my desires
Lord, I thank you for everything you have allowed in my life, and for every failure and wrong thing I’ve done, that you use it for good.
Praise you, my perfect God!
For earth and treasures may drift away
But my God the lord of heaven and earth
Is with me till the very end of the age
My lord is beside me wherever I go
Within me always
And leading me in the sunrise
To seek Him

My Lord is the God of strength and humility
My king who washed the feet of his children
And his servants
My god is not limited by imagination
Nor the human mind
He is able to do things beyond that which I can see and hear
My god is always at work
Never ceasing in his love for me
Never away for a single moment
When I call on Him He is there
When I cry out to Him
He comforts me
When I serve Him
He places insurmountable joy in my heart
Praise the lord
My God
My heart’s king

My God is the one who empowers me
His strength glows in the darkness of my weakness
The same God who gave sight to my blindness
Is the God who parted
The red seas
Who cause the walls of Jericho
To come crashing down
My God is invincible
Righteous and great in power
He lives in me
And He has smiled upon me
Not because of what I have done
But because of who He is-
Love

My God, I praise you with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength
Because you desire for every fiber of my being to seek you
I lift up my all to You
May Your name be praised forever and ever
In the quietest depths of the ocean
In the nosiest crowd in the city
In the dark stillness of solitude
And in the peaceful morning of light
God, will your name be praised
Your servant bows down before you
Because I do not dare look upon your face
You are the great I AM

Sunday, December 6, 2009

girl in the well - written on the bus ride home


She’s leaning over the side of
The well
Looking deep into the water
Rain falls
She starts sitting in the shadows
That draw
Her little strength away from her
Away from the light and into fear
Into the abyss
Of her tears

She’s fallen over the side of
The well
Looking around her
She falls
She starts kicking and trashing
To stay
Afloat for her dear life here
Letting go is not an option near
Down she goes
Seems like years

She’s gotten up out of
The well
Looking back at the water
She smiles
She was so closed on receiving
The grace
Awaiting her before she floated
Just to drift and wait for fate
Unfolded it is
No more an abyss

Friday, December 4, 2009

=)

i dont know how to help you but to pray for you
i dont know what to say that will be best for you
i dont know how i can be good for God and you
i dont know what is the best decision i can make
for you

sorrythankyoulala

Thursday, December 3, 2009

beautiful seed by corrinne may

Lord, you have worked a miracle in my life. Your servant bows down in awe of You. Your servant and Your child has nothing but praise and her heart for You. You have led me and guided me, called me, and shown me. I have no words to describe You. Will you lead me where You want me to go. I give my life to You. May Your will be done. You are God. I cry out to You.                                                              Amen


Beautiful Seed - Corrinne May
I can fill the darkness with just one flash of light

Break the the silence with just one word
Warm the fire-started revolution
One that can save the world


On the steps of Washington sprinkled like confetti
Thousands of people sing "We shall overcome"
The preacher shouts: "Let freedom ring"
He gave his life for what he believed


Chorus
You can be a witness You can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where foes can meet 
Hope for the future
Shout it, don't whisper dreams are what make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems 
You're a beautiful seed


She's a pastor's daughter
She's only 16
But her heart and her belly are breaking at the seams
Her boyfriend blames her
He want to pay for the doctor to wash it away


As she lays in the hospital
A Christmas choir is singing
About a child in a manger fragile and small "Unto us is born a Savior"
She looks at her baby and cries as she sings him a lullaby


(Chorus)


Every hope, every power lies in the heart of a seed that flowers
Intertwined all across the land
We're all seeds in the maker's hand



Thank God for you ggp. God has used You. Thank God for you jason. God has used you to love me as a blessed friend. Thank God for You Donn, because He has shown His love for you and will continue to do so. Thank God for you, cheryl jie, for being ready to take action for God. Thank God for you, mei, for your enthusiasm. Thank God for you, jar, because He is working in your life. I'm so proud of you, so is God. Thank God for you, pa and ma, for loving me and allowing me to grow up and experience God. Thank God for you, angie, for He is holding you in His amazing hands. Thank God for you, kor joel, for guiding me with God's love. Thank God for all of you.


Thank God for problems, because through them i seek His help, and He allows me to overcome. Thank God for trials, because He loves me.


Thank God for my life!


This week has been emotional
But blessed :)


More problems to come
But i shall not fear.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

=)

i'm sorry.
thank you.

supposed to be writing something else now. but if i were to exaggerate, this is how i feel now. cause i dont feel like doing what You told me to do. but i'll do it anyway. and go against my own nature. and desires. but all is fine. cause i've been blessed beyond measure.

I awoke
Only to find my lungs empty
And through the night
So it seems I'm not breathing
And now my dreams are nothing like they were meant to be
And I'm breaking down, I think I'm breaking down

And I'm afraid
To sleep because of what haunts me
Such as living with the uncertainty
That I'll never find the words to say
Which would completely explain
Just how I'm breaking down

[Chorus]
Someone come and, someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now it's like the night is taking sides
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be this misery will suffice?

[Gordon Downie]
I've become
A simple souvenir of someone's kill
And like the sea
I'm constantly changing from calm to ill
Madness fills my heart and soul as if the great divide could swallow me whole
oh, how I'm breaking down

[Chorus]
oooohhh my life

Someone come and, someone come and save my life (save my life)
Someone come and, someone come and save my life (save my life)
Someone come and, someone come and save my life
Could it be this misery will suffice?

2 corinthians 6 (lord i surrender)





















Lord, I cry out to You
I am torn
The holy spirit in me has talked to me
It has spoken to me
Lord
And I can’t help but listen
Lord
You test and refine your servant like silver and gold
With love that knows no boundaries
Lord
You break my heart and You make me whole
You break it
So that it grows
Into a finer one

Let me be to You
A sacrifice
I sacrifice my heart to You
I will abandon all
For You

That is my prayer
Lord
Will You hold me
And continue to test me
And place me through fire and rain

Lord I have not listened
But you have spoken again
so ever clearly
How can I ignore your commands
Which are firm like a rock
Clear as crystal
And holy as Your blessed name

Lord
Who parted the seas
Who rides on the clouds
And has belial under his feet
lord who has my life planned out in
His hands

Lord
Who is my master
And my only hope
My one true king
Who has taken over my heart

Help me obey You

This is your servant’s plea
That You
Strengthen me
And cause me to obey You
Unconditionally

In trust of Your heart I pray
Amen

Sunday, November 29, 2009

gifts and curses

I hear the wind call your name
It calls me back home again
It sparks up the fire - a flame that still burns
Oh it's to you I'll always return
I still feel your breath on my skin
I hear your voice deep within
The sound of my lover - a feeling so strong
It's to you - I'll always belong

Now I know it's true
My every road leads to you
And in the hour of darkness darlin'
Your light gets me through

Wanna swim in your river - be warmed by your sun
Bathe in your waters - cos you are the one
I can't stand the distance - I can't dream alone
I can't wait to see you - Ya I'm on my way home

Oh I hear the wind call your name
The sound that leads me home again
It sparks up the fire - a flame that still burns
Oh, it's to you - I will always return

Saturday, November 28, 2009

love's a decision and a commitment. feeling? zilch at all. okay, maybe a bit.

you dont wake up every single day feeling like the world's a better place just because you have that special someone who cares for and loves you.
you dont form this untouchable bond that deems you a single hearted, one-minded person who doesnt get attracted to other people.
you dont feel like its magic all the time, and sometimes, you hardly know whats going on at all. you can never say never or ever yes.
you dont know if he/she is 'the one'. no one ever does. but time is the only answer to that question

yet

love is what keeps many of us going
a decision made that can only be carried out with feelings interjected in between, regularly, and continually done with commitment.

love lifts us up where we belong
and all we need is love

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Hey There NYC





Hey


There


Pretty


Skyline




Hey there new york city
With your Christmas lights so pretty
Will you miss me new york city
When im gone
I want to stay but ive got home
Ive got to go

Hey there new york city
Over here I’ve left a part of me
Take care of my heart for me
The little part I left behind
You’ll be on my mind









Cause I’ve got a hug waiting for me
A kiss and a welcome back written on my sleeve
I’ve got my family waiting for me
Including the ones I picked up along the way

Hey there new york city
Hows it like, hows it been
Im back home and I’ve been wishing
To see you again
To breathe your winds
To smell your air



Hey new york city
I’ve been busy, really busy
Looks like we’ve got to wait awhile
To meet again
To shake our hands
Conspire at night
When the time’s right…

Cause I need the hugs waiting for me
The kisses and hellos written on my warmer sleeve
My family who needs me
Including the ones I picked up along the way
So I cant stay

Bye NYC!

Friday, November 20, 2009

PMUNC freaks me out. PMUNC tires me out. PMUNC hear me out.

three words:

I FEEL LIKE I HAVE AN IQ OF FORTY ONE POINT SIX. 


See, I'm too stupid to even count properly.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

looking at NYC thru my hotel room window






i guess, when you're further away
you tend to see details slightly clearer
you leave the things and people you've
been basking in for awhile
and you gaze upon the skyline
with an eagle's view


and you stay silent, thinking
looking at the yellow taxi that's driving a bit too fast
the tree that's slightly too barren
the sky that isnt as pretty and awe inspiring as you thought it was
the building that actually looks... tired


and you think about your friends back home
you feel slightly too far away
you talk to one special one
and God speaks thru him to you

Lord,
I am sorry for relying too much on other people and their love, and forgetting that You are love. Lord, i realize i cannot live alone, and these friends and family are truly a blessing from You, but i have forgotten that Lord, you above all else, are my truest lover, and my deepest friend, whose love for me is wider and deeper and stronger than any other love.


Help me to each day, before seeking my friends and loved ones, seek You, wanting to spend time with You, in pure adoration of Your goodness and kindness and gracia to me. Help me Lord, also, to fuel myself with Your divine love, and not the love of people.


Help me then to love others with Your love. I praise You for You work in the most wondrous ways. Will You take away negative feelings and replace them with wisdom in action.


In Your Blessed Name i pray
Amen



'I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

'As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.

'You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. This is my command: Love each other.'

John 15